At crossroads

it's a strange world. There are certain times when you long for something but when it come to you, you no longer desire it. I alway wanted to do so many things in life and always thought that sometime in life when i will get time i will enjoy doing those things. Now I have time but I no longer relish it. I was so much engrossed in the life of my children for past 22 years thatI became habitual of that life and suddenly when my circumstances changed i felt and emptiness. My son went to hostel for his MBA. My daughter did not go to hostel but I got transfered to some other place. Though it's a very nomal thing and anyone can anticipate it but I never imagined my life with my children staying somewhere else. Here was the time for which I longed so much. I always thought that I will do this and I will do that when I will get time and here I am with whole time at my disposal but the only feeling I have is of emptiness. I do not know when again I will be staying with my children it may be in one or two years but this is the fact that things whould not be same again. It's the time when I should think over the future course of my life. But even in this feeling of sadness and emptiness I am greatful to god and my children that they made my life beautiful. Difficulties and problems were there but still it was the most memorable time of my life. I just pray that I should be lucky enough to get that love and affaction till I live and god make me worthy of it